I've been doing some growing up these last few weeks. And as such I feel a bit raw - in a good way - a bit new, bit fresh and brave and ready to make some changes in some of my attitudes to some things...
I think the thing that has brought this on with me has been admitting to myself, the loneliness I often feel. Now I know what you're thinking - how can she be lonely with five kids & a husband + a large extended family?! You would think it impossible! But I've been forgetting in some ways to more often keep the company of somebody else. God.
The maker of my days and the protector of my nights is with me always, and not to watch me and catch me out if I do wrong (the way people have often viewed it, myself once included), but rather to be beside me always, like a loving spiritual father who I need never fear will leave me, or misunderstand my intentions. And more so, if I save a seat beside me for Him in my life, I stand the chance of gaining that which we humans need most of all to survive and prosper in this world. Wisdom.
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We took a day trip to Sydney last week to go to IKEA which frankly, is one of my favourite things to do! I am running an apartment which is let out for short term stays, as well as living in and nurturing the historic Green House Cottage on Hillview - so a day trip to the home of Swedish home wares and every good homey thing was just the ticket!I bought my sunroom some new curtains which now need hemming (a task I am finding difficult to make time for), so in the meantime I have a fabulous curtain-less view out to Wintery Hillview, where I can sit and have tea. Looking out, and looking within, taking time, and making space for more than just me in my thoughts.
Shell xx
Ah Shell, its a curious, kindred feeling to know you've been on a journey not so unlike mine in the last few weeks. I have been quietly, adjusting to a life much quieter, more solitary than before. And realising how close, always close, my Sovereign is to me. Knowing that He completes me, fills me up. I am learning to trust Him with confidence, that He knows all the hairs on my head, my joys, sorrows, worries and cares for them all. And loves me. Psalm 73 keeps coming into my thoughts;
ReplyDeleteNevertheless, I am continually with you;
you hold my right hand.
You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will receive me to glory.
Whom have I in heaven but you?
And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
Amen sister
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Aw, what can I saw that hasn't already been said. Except that I think one of the greatest things in life is the growth opportunities we do get and the joy that can come after the pain. Love and hugs. xx
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderful view you have, and a wonderful word about our Savior:) Thanks so much for sharing!
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